Today, I turn 65 years old. It’s a mile marker age in many ways. By the time we get to this place, we understand and accept the fact that we are not all that and God is. I not only know, but have experienced, that when I am weak in my human strength, then I am strong, truly able, truly strong, when I am truly drawing from God’s strength.1
In January, God gave me the word humility for this year. I wanted a different word because humility was not a word I wanted to embrace. But I knew that just the fact I didn’t want to claim it as mine, meant by necessity it had to be the word for this year.
I wasn’t sure what I was getting in for. However, as I studied the word, I began to see in order to have humility, I have to be in total submission to God.
This year has been and still is a journey of submission to and waiting on God. Most of my agenda has gone out the window. This is a good thing. It means He is answering my prayers. He is leading me even in the waiting.
This year and really all of my life has been a reaffirmation of the fact that I need God just to exist, to breathe, to get up in the morning. I need Him to lead me. I need Him to guide me. I need Him to whisper His Sweet Grace in my ear.
Every single day I surrender myself to Him again. In the past I began every single prayer time with my to-do list, my agenda, my wants and desires. Now I come to Him, empty my heart and my hands of everything I am holding on to so tight that it’s cutting off the circulation in my brain.
This is truly the only way to live. I live more convinced each day that every detail of my life is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into my life, for I am His lover. I have been called to fulfill His designed purpose.2 I want to share that truth with everyone. It’s integral to taking one day at a time, not trying to figure everything out, but just being enfolded in Him.
I come to Him as His child wanting to get to know Him better. He is not a genie in a bottle that I command. He is my friend. He is my comforter. He is my guide. He is my protector. He is my provider He is the one to whom I pour out my heart and then, He pours His into mine until I can no longer contain the magnificence of it.
He is God and in that space, I learn I never have to fear. I am in God and He is in me. I am secure in Him.
I lay all my worries and cares at His feet and know they are safer there that they ever would be with me. Then I am free to submit completely to an Almighty God. And I do.
Praying the same for you today.
1 2 Cor. 12:10 AMP
2 Romans 8:28 TPT