What do you crave? Is it something God doesn’t want you to crave? Is it more important than God in your life? If you want it just because you want it, it may be because that is living by following your desires and cravings than by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Galatians 5:16,18 TPT tells us, “As you yield to the dynamic life and power of the Holy Spirit, you will abandon the cravings of your self-life. When your self-life craves the things that offend the Holy Spirit you hinder him from living free within you! And the Holy Spirit’s intense cravings hinder your self-life from dominating you … But when you yield to the life of the Spirit, you will no longer be living under the law, but soaring above it!”
When we do what we want we are not following the Holy Spirit. We are allowing our cravings to lead us. The solution, then, is to surrender to the Holy Spirit. It took me a long time to do that and to understand what I wanted was not what was best or the most beneficial for me. In fact, many times the foods I craved mastered me and I became their willing slave, just because I wanted them (1 Cor. 6:12).
It started early for me. When I was around five I noticed that my mother had a bag of caramels up in the top of the kitchen cabinet. I loved caramels, but they were off-limits to me. So when she would take a nap in her bedroom, I’d pull a chair up to the counter, climb up and snitch a caramel.
At first, I was very careful. I only took one at a time. However, I soon wanted more and what I wanted, I felt I had to have. This went on for about a year until I was in school all day and wasn’t home during my mother’s afternoon nap.
One time in the summer, though, I had to have a caramel. Mom was asleep. I crept up on the counter, but this time I took the entire bag down because there weren’t many caramels in there. I sat in the middle of the floor indulging myself, not being aware of anything else in the room. I was in caramel heaven.
What My Mother Said
Until I looked over and saw my mother’s shoes in front of me.
“Teresa Kay,” she said. “What do you think you are doing?”
I looked up and said, “I was hungry.”
“Are those your caramels?” she asked.
I shook my head, “No.’
“The caramels are mine and you are never to eat them again without permission. When you get to be an adult, you can buy your own candy and eat as much as you want. But right now, you aren’t to touch these.”
She grabbed the bag with a few remaining pieces and took it to her room where she carefully stashed it so I couldn’t find it.
Grandma’s Oatmeal Cookies
My desire for sweets didn’t go away as I got older and stayed more often with my grandparents on their farm. There Grandma always had me help her make a big batch of oatmeal cookies. We’d eat them until they were all gone and then make another batch the next day.
So when I grew up I cooked all the things Grandma had taught me to cook. And I felt if I wanted something sweet to eat, I was following my mother’s advice. I was now an adult and I could eat all I wanted and eat I did.
Because of that I eventually gained up to 430 pounds and a cardiac surgeon told me I had five years to live if I didn’t lose at least 100 pounds and keep it off. This time in my life was pivotal because it was the first time I had been told unabashedly that my extreme weight could lead to my death.
Danger in Delicious Form
He opened my eyes to the dangers my over-indulgence in delicious foods and my excuse that I wanted them simply because I loved to eat them had on my life. During this time I realized I did want to live for my family and for whatever God wanted to do with my life. I just didn’t want to give up the foods I loved. I really thought I couldn’t survive without them. Romans 7:7 19 NLT states what my mindset was during this time. “I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.”
My story is long and involved but I want you to understand that one of the main excuses I used to do what God told me to do which was to stop eating sugar is that I wanted it. I loved it. I lived it.
At the end of Romans 7, verses 24-25, Paul asks a pivotal question and then gives us the answer. “Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind, I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.”
Let the Holy Spirit Lead
Jesus is the answer. When we accept Him, we receive the Holy Spirit. He is within us to lead and guide us, but we have to acknowledge His presence and ask for His help. We must be Spirit-controlled, sensitive to His direction, guidance and leading.
In other words, we have to take the fork out of our mouths. We have to put the food down. He won’t do it for us.
Don’t miss episode 137 of Sweet Grace for Your Journey podcast: I Want What I Want. Go here to listen: https://teresashieldsparker.com/podcast/.