The Big Question

I was listening to a training where a coach was telling her client to ask God a question. The minute I heard the question, I felt like someone and hit me in the stomach because I felt no way in a million year would I ask God that question. It scared me to death to think of His answer to what felt like the BIG question. 

I had already lost 250 pounds by this time, but I had just hit that mark and I not had time to accept the fact that I was living in an entirely different body and actually doing what God had wanted me to do for years.

For all of my adult life I had been trying to compensate for my weaknesses of overeating and gaining a tremendous amount of weight. I thought I could make up for my utter failures by working harder, doing more tasks which I dubbed “kingdom work,” but really it was that I was working to be noticed by the Almighty. Yeah, I admit it. I thought I could earn brownie points with God.

I knew this wasn’t how God operated, but I still felt like I had to do something, I just didn’t think I could do the one thing God wanted from me which was to lose weight and live a healthier lifestyle. So because I didn’t think I could do that, I’d try to approach things from a different angle.

Cognitively, the adult me knew I couldn’t earn God’s favor. I knew that His grace saved me and that it is always freely given no matter what I’ve done or not done. However,  there was still a part of me that said, “Have I done enough to be called your daughter, God?”

So when I heard the question I panicked because the question was, “What do You think of me, God?”

Even though I knew my sins had been removed as far as the east is from the west as Psalm 103:12 NLT says, I still believed they were a part of me. It was really hard to understand that to God they are gone. 

The message I was listening to was designed to help me understand who I really am to God. I got to the place where I had to just stop the recording and finally ask God the question or I would die. I wanted to know, but I didn’t. You know that feeling where you feel like you are standing on the edge of the rest of your life and this one step will define everything? 

I share more about how God answered me when I got the courage to ask. 

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