There were three barriers that loomed like huge mountains in front of me—too high to climb, too big to move, too wide to go around and too thick to tunnel through. They surrounded me on all sides and I was engulfed in them. They were mountains I had allowed to move to that location and they kept me from losing weight.
I was bound and chained.. It was useless to move in any direction. I was mired in decisions of my own making and I had no idea how to move these magnanimous mountains.
I knew the Bible. I knew I could ask God to move the mountains, but these mountains seemed even too big for God to move. I was just doomed.
One mountain was definitely physical. I felt like a 430-pound mountain. I wanted the extra layers of fat to be gone, like immediately, right now. Any effort at dieting just seemed like a pebble thrown in the ocean. I couldn’t see that it made much, if any, impact.
So I would comfort myself with my favorite foods, preferably those wonderful treats that reminded me of days spend with my Grandma on the farm. And I would sink deeper and deeper in the mire of despair.
With extreme weight, exercise also seemed impossible. I hurt just to walk. And so I stayed home, moved as little as possible, except to go grocery shopping for my favorite go-to snacks. I had erected this mountain sweet morsel by sweet morsel.
Guilt covered me in a blanket of shame. I am a smart woman. I knew I got in the condition I was in by eating my way there. I couldn’t really understand why I continued to eat. I really didn’t want to be a living spectacle. I wanted to be normal.
I felt I couldn’t lose weight, but I could work hard. It was an endless cycle. The harder I worked, the more I felt I needed to be rewarded and food did that.
Then there was this fear I had. Having been molested as a child, somehow I was emotionally all right at making myself bigger. Fat was my mountain of protection.
I tried not to think about the predicament I was in. I avoided mirrors, especially full-length ones, but inevitably I’d have to look and then the sadness would engulf me, followed by a mountain of self-hatred. And you guessed it, I’d eat to cover the pain.
It was a merry-go-round of heartache built into a mountain of overwhelm. And I kept eating to keep my emotions from screaming too loudly. I might get out-of-control and hurt someone. Instead, I was just choosing to kill myself slowly with each bite.
When I would walk into church, conviction would be monumental. I knew God wanted me to stop eating sugar and severely limit other carbohydrates. He had told me that during a prayer time years before.
I had come to what I felt like was the end of my rope. I finally cried out to Him and said, “How can I move this mountain of flesh?” The irony of it is, it really wasn’t just flesh that needed to be moved. The emotional and spiritual mountains were just as large, if not larger.
His instructions to me were out of grace, wisdom and total understanding of my situation. I wrote what I knew He was saying in my journal. “Stop eating sugar. Eat more meats, fruits and vegetables and stop eating so much bread.”
I didn’t do it. How could I? Sugar, breads and high carbohydrates foods were my mainstay. From that moment, though, I allowed the enemy of my soul full access to my life. The door wasn’t just open a crack, it was thrown wide open.
“Come on in. Sit down. Make yourself comfortable. Here, have a bite of Mamaw’s oatmeal cake, the richest, densest and most glorious cake in the world. Who cares if it has 5,000 calories a slice.” He just smiled and joined me in the devilish treat.
Unwelcome houseguests can be as immovable as mountains. Today, having lost more than 260 pounds, I can tell you this with certainty—mountains can be moved.
My mountains began moving when I came to the end of my resources. My book, Sweet Grace, tells you a lot more about this and my new book I’m working on, Sweet Freedom, will tell you even more about the various obstacles I encountered and what processes God used to help those mountains move. It was really when I stopped trying to come up with a better plan and do it His way that things began changing.
“Jesus was matter-of-fact: ‘Embrace this God-life. Really embrace it, and nothing will be too much for you. This mountain, for instance: Just say, ‘Go jump in the lake’—no shuffling or shilly-shallying—and it’s as good as done. That’s why I urge you to pray for absolutely everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you’ll get God’s everything. And when you assume the posture of prayer, remember that it’s not all asking. If you have anything against someone,forgive—only then will your heavenly Father be inclined to also wipe your slate clean of sins.’” 1
I began renouncing embedded lies I had gathered through my lifetime. I began wiping the slate clean, forgiving, confronting my wrong ideas and attitudes with God’s help and applying His truth as the antidote.
One by one, chains began to snap. I was able to lift my feet out of muck and mire. All of a sudden, I looked around and realized, somehow, some way, the mountains had moved.
And truth set me free.2
1Mark 11;2e-25 MSG
2John 8:32 NLT
I formed Sweet Change Weight Loss Group to help people just like you get a handle on their weight issues. It’s about living healthy—body, soul and spirit. Somehow when we have weight to lose we only focus on the body. I’m here to tell you that weight loss, especially extreme weight loss is a whole person issue.
It’s not about willpower or the lack there of, it’s about understanding who you are and why God designed you. You are a uniquely designed to set the world on fire for Him. That’s why the enemy has been fighting so hard against this great endeavor you so desire. It’s not just a passing whim. It’s something you MUST do to fulfill the destiny He has planned for you.
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